after a couple weeks away from the computer, i've been thinking about what i want this little part of the internet to become, what purpose i'd like for this blog to serve as the future becomes the present. and i got nothin'. i've already seen its weight and importance change with unreserved frequency since its beginning, which was inevitable. i only wish for it to always be a positive, constructive resource for me, my creations, my musings, my thoughts, my many questions.
so, perception and presentation have been common themes to my thoughts these days. i spent this past week at a camp for children with arthritis that i've been attending with my family every year since i was seven years old. over the course of 13 years as a camper and volunteer amongst these kids with rheumatic diseases, i was blessed with knowledge about a range of 'illnesses' I would have never known about otherwise, friends that seemed to become closer than any others i was around during the remaining 360 days of the year, and experiences i'm assured my poor memory will retain for a long time. this year was my first year as a counselor, and it changed a lot in my perception of camp, and in general. i had some good talks with really good people about how we perceive things and it forced me to ask myself a pretty hard question. that is whether i consistently reflect what i feel in my heart, whether others feel my good intentions, my love, care and compassion. i'd like to think i do, but i know that i and everyone struggle with it.
with this past week of learning and loving and smiling, paired with this post about uncertainty, i'd like to conclude with certainty that i am excited and happy about it all. camp was amazing and now to move back to grand rapids!
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